As a man, I find it difficult to enjoy sex at its max level with someone with whom I don't have any emotional connection. If I know a girl well, and then we have sex together I think that kind of sex would be great and very satisfying.
As you know I love a girl, but she has completely ignored me, When I am after a girl, they treat me as if I am a bug or something. So, I stopped running after them completely. I don't care. I just pay them now to have sex with me.
These days, I am hiring a call girl regularly, and I am having sex with her on regular basis. Even though I am getting offers from other women also for paid sex, I am avoiding them, because I am not a casanova type of person, and I want to have sex with multiple girls, for me 1 is okay, and this also gives me a chance to know a person, to enjoy sex at a higher level, like you cannot enjoy tantric sex with a stranger, you need to know the person.
I met this call girl around 6 times within 2 months. We know each other, we enjoy sex, she let me enjoy foreplay with her, and she also works at some property dealing firm. We talk, drink, have foreplay, and then have intercourse. But still, I miss the love part. Sex is not love, sex without love is not very satisfactory. For me, sex with her is like a playful act or a kind of physical activity similar to having an exercise.
My heart craves love, but till I am not getting it, I am not going to live solo, I am not going to waste more of my time, I will use this time to get better at sex. I will try different sex positions with her, Its like I am practicing sex with her, till I find the right partner.